With anything you do, there comes a point in time that you need to step away. In June of this year that moment finally came. New H2O was founded on September 20, 2010. Every single day for the last five years I posted music, sent emails to artists, wrote articles, invested in others and countless other acts that involve keeping the website running.
This last year was really weighing heavy on me. I had no intention of ever taking a break. It was almost as if the break was forced upon me. The wear and tear of my daily activities was really beginning to take its’ toll on me. The breaking point was my realization of the current state of CHH. I’ve been investing my time all these years because I love God and I love hip hop. I loved giving people fresh new artists to listen to. Over the last year my communication with artists was really starting to get to me.
No longer did people see New H2O as a place to spread the Gospel but a place to advance their career.
With that single realization I began to feel discouraged on where this website was heading. I felt like I was working for the artists rather than being led by God. Somewhere down the line I let the artists take control rather than asking God what He would like to me to do next.
I really think this break was inspired by God to reflect on the current trajectory of the website. When I first started this website it was to supplement the world with something positive. It was meant to get people on track and to encourage others.
There came a point in my sabbatical that I was going to shut New H2O down. This was early on in my break and I wasn’t focusing on what was important. I took some more time and God really worked on my heart and encouraged me to pursue the original goals of this website once again.
Was I wrong to let the business of CHH take over rather than the ministry? I absolutely believe so. God really gave me peace and I am motivated to start fresh. I am more focused than ever to continually bring positive hip hop to people and encourage others during their walk. God gave us this platform and I truly believe that our best days are ahead.
Thank you all for believing in us and being there. We are pushing forward and the vision is clearer than ever. 🙂